ETERNAL SEARCH

What is this search for? A dreamer searching for the dream person? A shadow searching for its source? A phantom-I" searching for the "real I"? A wave searching for the ocean? A person not counting himself as the tenth man and searching for him in the asembly of ten? The Truth is that there is no dreamer, there is no shadow; there is no phantom I, there is no individual wave and there is none missing. The shadow exists because of the false notion entertained by an individual that he stands independent of the SOURCE. Similarly, it is out of sheer ignorance that a wave feels itself independent, and the man too out of forgetfulness omitted to count himself. So long as, there is ignorance and there is forgetfulness about our true nature , the search will go on for ever. A dreamer cannot find out the dream person so long as he is in the dream. All these statements are mere concepts!! Once the dreamer wakes up from the dream, the concepts come to an end., or conversely, when the concepts end, the dreamer wakes up.


With the above 'concepts' in mind, we may proceed with the 'search'. Philosophers as well as Vedantins commonly use a few terminologies in their search. They are:


Brahman -- Ishwara -- Viswam -- Jeeva

Awareness - Consciousness -- Universe -- individual

Noumenon - No-phenomena - phenomena -- sentience

Base -- Substratum -- Appearance -- manifestation

Aadharam -- Athishtanam -- Abhasam -- Prathibhasam

Vyaktavyakta -- Avyakta -- Vyakta -- Vyakthy

Purushottama -- Akshara Purusha -- Kshara Purusha -- jeevatma

Paramashiva -- Parashakthy -- Adhishakthy -- Iccha-kriya-gnana sakthy

Mayadeeda -- Mahamaya -- Jaganmaya -- jeeva

In each of the above quadruplets, the first one represents Absolute, the second one is Expression, the third one is Appearance and the last one is dreamer-the individual!


The individual experiences pleasure and pain alternately while reacting with persons and events. He desires for continuous pleasure forgetting the fact that pleasure and pain are two facets of the same coin. It is PEACE that appears as pleasure and pain on either side. The Truth is that both pleasure and pain, apparently opposites, get synthesised in PEACE (which is the swaroopa of Consciousness - the Source of the individual) We can see many more dualities , apparently opposites, posing as thesis and anti-thesis, getting merged in synthesis. To mention a few: Ritam and satyam merging in Param; preyas and sreyas merging in Moksha; priyam and hitam merging in Anantham, aham and twam merging in Asmi, avaranam and vikshepam merging in Vastu-nishtam; apara and para merging in Paratpara, saguna and nirguna merging in Gunatheeha; gnanam and vignanam merging in Atma-gnanam , vyakta and avyakta merging in vyaktavyakta, kshara and akshara merging in Purushottama, Adhisakthy and parasakthy merging in Paramasiva, Universe and consciousness merging in Awareness, Ishwara and Viswam merging in Brahmam.

The individual experiences duality only because he has forgotten the SOURCE--Consciousness--Peace. The peace in him (which is his true nature) dissipates as pleasure and pain. To the extent he develops an attitude of equanimity, he realises his Self - he realises PEACE - his true nature. With this realisation established permanently in him, he could see his Self in all beings and all beings in his Self. There is no more duality of subject and object. An individual wave finds harmony with other waves realising that they in common emanate from the Ocean, exist in the Ocean and ultimately dissolve in the Ocean. Similarly, an individual feels harmony with the entire universe once he has realised that both himself and the universe rest in Consciousness.


The individual is Consciousness, the Universe is Consciousness and whatever is, is Consciousness only. Consciousness is the expression of Awareness and it is Consciousness which appears as Universe . The individuals with a sense of individuality and doership and experiencing the dual aspects of pleasure and pain, are also in the 'sankalpam' of that One Source - Consciousness.


The dreamer-individual is dreaming with dream concepts of independece, sense of doership and experience of pleasure and pain. Consciousness which has caused the dreamer and the dream, shall one day (if It chooses so) wake this dreamer up from the dream to remain as Consciousness (pure) forever. May this dreamer till then merge with the Cosmic Dream!! (Consciousness, the maker of the cosmic dream has control over it and each event in the Cosmic dream is decided by the Consciousness similar to the ocean deciding the course of individual wave) The Cosmic dream of the Consciousness is the Universe along with the illusion of individual with a sense of volition of his own. The purpose for which Consciousness creates a dream and a dreamer entity is best known to Consciousness only. A microcosmic dreamer-"an individual wavelet", cannot measure the fathom of the Ocean. May the Will of Consciousness function in this tiny speck ,as It Wills.